Today, my thoughts are madly dashing from point A and skipping to point Q before I’ve had time to really ponder A. Does that make sense? A multitude of things R-A-C-I-N-G through this mind of mine and filling trusted ears. (You know, “external processing”…)
When I was a little girl, my Mom used to lean over in church and squeeze my thigh and give me the look that said, “young lady, eyes ahead and mouth shut.” My Grammy used to look me square in the eye and say one word. “Settle”. My Papa used to reach his hand over to mine as I was inhaling food and talking a mile a minute and whisper the word, ”relax”. Teachers used to ask me to remove my desk from the classroom to allow my classmates to focus. There’s a theme here. (Confession, I hate themes like this).
Lately, I’ve been six (yes, six) steps ahead of what’s actually taking place in my life, and talking about it to those I hold dear. Have you ever wanted something to work out so bad that you have the whole thing all mapped out the way you want it to go? That’s me. I get so ahead of myself; planning things that have yet to be determined and getting excited about things that aren’t yet confirmed. My thoughts and my mouth overpower the small voice whispering in my ear. ”Be still. Be quiet.”
Truth is – I don’t want to be still OR be quiet. I want to race ahead with MY plans at full steam and tell those who know me best, all about it. I’m a huge dreamer – I have huge hopes and desires that I believe with my whole heart have been given to me by God. I’m passionate about life and all it has to offer! And yet, I’m supposed to be still AND quiet about it? COME ON!
As is the case 9 out of 10 times in my life, there’s a lesson that I know God is teaching me.
Four areas I need to work on:
1. When I want to blurt out the MOST AMAZING information and news – I need to be quiet.
2. When I want to say I have a new idea and plan – I don’t have to say it.
3. When I want to tell someone the better or more innovative way of doing things – I need to listen.
4. When I want to blurt out the future plans that are currently nested in my brain and have not yet come to fruition – I need to shut my mouth and wait on God’s timing.
1. Be quiet.
2. Keeping my mouth shut.
3. Listening (mouth shut).
4. Shutting my mouth.
OH SNAP! This seems like such an elementary lesson to just “shut my mouth”, but things are so exciting and interesting and HUGE that I just want to shout it out and share with reckless abandon! The thing is, recklessness = foolishness. Proverbs 17:28 says “Even a fool is thought wise if he keeps silent, and discerning if he holds his tongue.” Capturing all of my thoughts and emotions and allowing God to work on me INSIDE is what I know I must do. I’m certain that in due time there will be a story to share of God-sized magnitude. When that day comes and I have the green light, I promise I’ll share. Until then, I’m going to be still AND be quiet.
reeling myself in – socialcyndi
“Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.” Psalm 27:14