Sharing a blog….”Farewell 2011″

My friend Shirley so eloquently shares her perspective of 2011….honored she’ll be part of my 2012.

Farewell 2011.


It’s that moment….

It’s that moment when I’ve stepped into 2012 quietly…and am more excited than I’ve been in years.  The last time I can recall feeling so quietly elated was when I knew I was months away from meeting my little Ethan almost 10 years ago.

I’ve been a joy-filled person since I was a little girl…and while some things over the years ripped the joy out of me (some by my own doing), it’s been fully restored.  God is good – and while the blessings He’s giving me right now are so much more meaningful than any words I could pen, I can share this…

I’m content with being who I am……

I LOVE God from the depths of me…..He is my Rock and my Fortress, my Shelter, my Strength, my Justifier, my Protection, my Shield…..He’s my EVERYTHING.

I’m unapologetically in love…..Alex, you’re who I’ve been waiting for my entire life – I’m marrying my Very Best Friend!

I’m proud of each of my children and the people they are and are becoming…..JTLE – the songs in my heart are so loud for you.

I love my family deeply…..My Mom, my Sister, BIL, my Nephew, my Niece, my Cousins, my Aunt & Uncle….

My future in-laws and siblings in law are beautiful additions to my life…..

I have meaningful authentic friendships that contain honesty, love, trust and candid moments…..I have new friends that I am SO blessed with.

I’m not a bound by food….I make daily choices that respect the healthy woman I’m becoming.

I’m committed to being outstanding in my profession – I’ve found my niche….and I love it.

It’s THAT moment that I realize I’ve been waiting for, for all of my life….

and I’m honored to be living in it right now.

Captivated with gratitude – socialcyndi


Lifelines…

A few minutes ago, I got a text from one of my sons that read, “I’m struggling with giving and having patience today.  Just pray for me.”  I instantly replied to him and asked the Lord to cover him with a refreshed perspective and renewed ability to take things in stride….he reached out.

What an honor as his Mom to be able to know specifically how to pray for my child.  It’s these rare moments that I used to gloss over and seemingly forget about….but as I’ve learned over the past year, it’s these VERY MOMENTS when I need to stop and offer praise and thanks for!  And also experience a teachable moment…FOR ME!

My son has realized that its ok to reach out to a lifeline for help like he did today with a simple text.   I was able to offer him encouragement and  simultaneously speak to the Lord on his behalf.  I can learn a lot from that young man…..

SO OFTEN I  look to MYSELF to find resolution (after I’ve quickly muttered a half-hearted prayer).  There are lifelines who would be honored, like I am, to pray alongside me.  I confess that my pride often doesn’t allow me (nor anyone else) that blessing.  I’m too concerned with exposing my weaknesses to someone and possibly having to admit that I’m not gifted with patience, or that I’m weary, overwhelmed, exhausted, struggling with friendships, battling a negative self-image, fearful that I’ll be alone, disorganized, not good enough, anxious, caught up in status, I’ve yelled at my kids, I’m angry, doubtful …..  There is an ABUNDANCE OF OPPORTUNITIES for me to call out to a lifeline….and confess I’m weak and need prayer.

Yet another significant lesson being sown into my life because I have a son who wasn’t afraid to confess where he’s struggling…..another teachable moment for Mom. 🙂

thankful for these moments – socialcyndi


A slice of my heart…

JTLE 8/11

These four people right here are my truly my favorite people to spend time with. They bring a smile to my face, communicate from the heart, they serve those around them, they listen, they’re respectful, they’re best friends, they DREAM and most importantly, they live lives that honor the Lord.  It’s been said that they’re “too nice”…”too loving”… “they hug too much”… I assure you, I wouldn’t want them any other way.  It’s who they are – all with hearts that yearn to make a difference, bring smiles to little faces, cause a crying baby to giggle…. God blessed me with the opportunity of bringing up these three young men and a little lady.

Jonathon, Tyler, Lauren and Ethan – THANK YOU – for the endless supply of grace you offer me and for being so willing to stand tall when you could have easily made excuses to fall. I’m honored to be your Mom!

sharing a slice of my heart with you – socialcyndi


Making a house a home….

I was so in love with my Papa, the man I’d hope my husband would be just like – who lived out each day full of character and integrity – making a difference in our world we live in.  He was so quiet at home, yet commanded such a profound respect.  Wise. Honest. Loyal. Loving. Generous. Faithful. Proud. Humble. Firm. Respected. Esteemed. Honored. Edified. Son. Brother. Husband. Father.  Grandfather. Great-Grandfather…..my Papa.

I love my Grammy differently…she was the one who taught me more than I could ever share – how to keep a home, cooking, baking, cleaning, laundry, budgeting…  She was loved deeply by her husband and she honored and served him.  Wise. Discerning. Loving. Faithful. Respected. Deeply loyal. Gracious. Servant. Daughter. Sister. Wife. Mother. Grandmother. Great-Grandmother. Friend. Disciple. Some say, a prophet….it was because she fell in love with Papa, that I’m part of a very unique legacy.

I don’t know that I’ve really ever expected this day to come….

The home that they built 20+ years ago is being emptied….SO MANY LIVES have been impacted significantly within those walls….mine especially.  I could fill ten pages with memories but most profound is the day my heart was broken and the first place I sought refuge, was here.  I couldn’t imagine going anywhere else to talk to anyone else.  There I sat, at the feet of my Papa’s chair exposing my deepest feelings – and was allowed to.  It was the night I knew that they’d love me unconditionally, and that this house – was a home – a refuge for me when I was weary….

Our family has been praying for the potential new owners of this house since it went on the market…that they would feel the love that was shared for so many, many years and would appreciate my Grandparents impeccably maintained investment – The Moore Homestead.  Several  Sunday’s ago, a Realtor showed the house….an offer came in the next day.   There on the offer letter was the new owners name… signed, TMoore.  God is VERY interested in the little details of life…The Moore Homestead will remain, The Moore’s Home.

Relishing in the memories – socialcyndi


Why did He do it?

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Why did He do it?  A shack would have sufficed, but He gave us a mansion.  Did He have to give the birds a song and the mountains a peak?  Was He required to put stripes on a zebra and the hump on the camel?

…Why wrap creation in such splendor?  Why did He go to such trouble to give such gifts?

Why do you? You do the same.  I’ve seen you searching for a gift.  I’ve seen you stalking the malls and walking the aisles.  I’m not talking about the obligatory gifts…I’m talking about that extra-special gift…Why do you do it?….You do it so the heart will stop.  You do it so the jaw will drop.  You do it to hear those words of disbelief.  “You did this for me?”

That’s why you do it.  And that is why God did it.  Next time a sunrise steals your breath or a meadow of flowers leaves you speechless, remain that way.  Say nothing and listen as heaven whispers, “Do you like it?  I did it just for you.”

“Thanks be to God for the gift that is too wonderful for words.” – 2 Corinthians 9:15

Taken from – The Great House of God by Max Lucado entry December 23, 2011


WISE WORDS….that are RIGHT in line with my life!!!

I’ve come to realize that it’s this “pointless drama” that is NECESSARY in order to see who and what are important!  I’m blessed to have true friends who encourage, uplift, that are genuine and unpretentious…they are rare indeed!
My prayer is to be THIS FRIEND to others….

A constant work in progress – socialcyndi


When my heart is stirred….

I love Facebook – this is no surprise to anyone who knows me.  I also, love food – this too, is no surprise to anyone who knows me.  That being said,  I’m not a fan of giving up either one of those.  Over the past couple of weeks, my heart has been stirred that those two things are far too high on my priority list….and if you know me, then you’ll know when my heart is stirred, its my call to action.

When I was just weeks away from turning 30 (that’s almost 8 years ago…ugh), I recall feeling a similar stir.  I was 243 pounds and completely unhappy with myself inside and out.  I was glutinous, unhealthy and my self-image was living in the sewer.  I knew that I needed to make a serious life change and began listening more to what God was saying and talking less about how awful I felt.  I was introduced to something that dramatically changed my life…the art of discipline, learning about food, focusing on intake, and tracking what I’m actually putting into my mouth….I REFUSED to deviate from what I was asked to do – I was focused as though I was a contestant on the Biggest Loser – and I WON!  Over the course of a year, I had dropped almost 100 pounds, and I felt fantastic on the inside and liked what I saw on the outside.  My heart was stirred, and I showed up to work!

Today, I’ve put back on 50 of those pounds….and I’ve also adopted a social habit (addiction works too) that takes FAR TOO MUCH of my precious time.  In the safe world I once lived in that I closed everyone out of – I would NEVER admit to either of those weaknesses.  But, I gave up that life and have chosen that regardless of the judgement passed, criticism or the skeptical folks who toss doubt, I’m all in.  God’s stirred my heart…I must react.

I really enjoy the comfort of keeping my weakness to myself – it’s a nice buffer that allows me to fail in silence…..after all, if I don’t tell anyone then no one will know, right? Maybe, just maybe, my “fanatical” action of saying goodbye to Facebook for a while and working my rear-end off to track every bite I eat while maintaining my daily routine at the gym will be that stirring that God asked me to record here, so I could give Him the praise when I succeed!!

From my stirred heart – socialcyndi


A moment to cherish…

he truly does take my breath away....

Every once in a while I find myself in the midst of a moment I never want to forget.  Thankfully, there was a camera to capture this one!  I am in love – with the man of my dreams!  I didn’t even know what those dreams really looked like until now…and they are truly better than I thought possible.   It’s not complicated really.  There he is…each and every day he serves as a reminder that I’m right where I belong.

I look forward to each new moment I’m given to cherish….for now, I’ll relish in this one!

Sharing my moment with you – socialcyndi ❤


Setting the record straight…

I love reality TV shows. I used to try to say otherwise, but the truth is – I like them. I can pick a participant apart with the best of them. I wouldn’t say I physically critique them or pick their looks apart –  it’s more of a personality critique like, “She’s annoying, a whiner, irritating, manipulative, back-stabbing”…I tend to be very blunt with my criticism. I’m also callous and mean. Yes, I’m a “mean girl” and it wasn’t until I sat down to talk with my Savior this morning, that I fully had to admit it.

While reading through Proverbs 9 and finding bits of wisdom to journal and chat with the Lord about, I was struck and was prompted to post a scripture from yesterday’s quiet time on my Facebook. “Odd?”, I thought. “Why in the world do I need to do that?” I audibly asked myself.   And for the next 10 minutes, I wrestled with the scripture I KNEW I was being led to post. It should be such a simple thing to do…just type out the words and update my Facebook status. But, the more I read the words within the scripture, the more I was struck deep within my heart that they were a complete contradiction to the rant I had posted about a reality show participant just THE NIGHT BEFORE. How in the world could a verse that I KNEW God had laid on my heart, follow such trash talk? And what is that saying about the inconsistency of my character and the woman that I am?

This took me  deeper into thought….and I found myself actually petitioning the Lord to “understand” that I really didn’t want to post something that could possibly “offend” people or cause them to stand in judgement against me. It was at that very moment in thought, it became as clear what God was doing.  I was left with two distinct realizations:
1. I am not ashamed of the relationship I have with God – I don’t push Him on people – I share Him with anyone I can.
2. I’m sending mixed messages through my words within social media about the integrity of my character – and I need to fix that.
I knew immediately I needed to set the record straight.

It was clear that God was asking me to put myself out there and be bold  – I needed to recognize and see the faults within myself.  For a moment, I contemplated choosing to fly below the radar and stay quiet. I KNOW that I was being led to be bold and see how far I would go for my Savior when He asks me (even if it was just a silly Facebook post).   It was a humbling question I knew I needed to ask myself…”Why is it so simple to spout off and boast my opinions about a reality TV show participant but find myself cowering when it comes to sharing Scripture that could potentially offend someone? I knew the answer and I needed to face it head on.

There’s no question about it – this girl on TV annoyed me – but that doesn’t make her any less a child of God. Sure, she’s sobbing on a TV show…that doesn’t mean that God loves her any differently than He loves me. In fact, according to the Bible, I’m called to share the love of Christ with people just like her – yet there I was, being mean & gossiping openly about my dislike for her!

I’m here to set the record straight…not to say I’m anything spectacular for “outing” myself – quite the contrary in fact. I’m a girl who stumbled and fell flat on my face with humility this morning and I needed to seek the forgiveness first from my Lord and also from those whom I’ve demonstrated this inconsistency to. I’m a work in progress – and I’m working overtime to walk through a character refining process with grace and integrity. Last night, I bombed big time – today, I’m assured that through the saving Grace of Jesus – I’m forgiven.

‎”….blessed are those who keep my ways. Listen to my instruction and be wise; do not ignore it. Blessed is the man who listens to me, watching daily at my doors, waiting at my doorway. For whoever finds me finds life and receives favor from the LORD. But whoever fails to find me harms himself; all which hate me love death.” – Proverbs 8:32-36

A constant work in progress –
socialcyndi


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