When my heart is stirred….

I love Facebook – this is no surprise to anyone who knows me.  I also, love food – this too, is no surprise to anyone who knows me.  That being said,  I’m not a fan of giving up either one of those.  Over the past couple of weeks, my heart has been stirred that those two things are far too high on my priority list….and if you know me, then you’ll know when my heart is stirred, its my call to action.

When I was just weeks away from turning 30 (that’s almost 8 years ago…ugh), I recall feeling a similar stir.  I was 243 pounds and completely unhappy with myself inside and out.  I was glutinous, unhealthy and my self-image was living in the sewer.  I knew that I needed to make a serious life change and began listening more to what God was saying and talking less about how awful I felt.  I was introduced to something that dramatically changed my life…the art of discipline, learning about food, focusing on intake, and tracking what I’m actually putting into my mouth….I REFUSED to deviate from what I was asked to do – I was focused as though I was a contestant on the Biggest Loser – and I WON!  Over the course of a year, I had dropped almost 100 pounds, and I felt fantastic on the inside and liked what I saw on the outside.  My heart was stirred, and I showed up to work!

Today, I’ve put back on 50 of those pounds….and I’ve also adopted a social habit (addiction works too) that takes FAR TOO MUCH of my precious time.  In the safe world I once lived in that I closed everyone out of – I would NEVER admit to either of those weaknesses.  But, I gave up that life and have chosen that regardless of the judgement passed, criticism or the skeptical folks who toss doubt, I’m all in.  God’s stirred my heart…I must react.

I really enjoy the comfort of keeping my weakness to myself – it’s a nice buffer that allows me to fail in silence…..after all, if I don’t tell anyone then no one will know, right? Maybe, just maybe, my “fanatical” action of saying goodbye to Facebook for a while and working my rear-end off to track every bite I eat while maintaining my daily routine at the gym will be that stirring that God asked me to record here, so I could give Him the praise when I succeed!!

From my stirred heart – socialcyndi

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About socialcyndi

Follower of Jesus | Wife | Mom | Friend .... Sharing my heart one life lesson at a time. View all posts by socialcyndi

6 responses to “When my heart is stirred….

  • Jasmine

    YAY….. Welcome back to blogging and Good Luck in all you do. XOXO

  • Donna White

    I love your blog, Cyndi! It takes such courage to be so open with our God and with ourselves, but such honesty is one of our greatest weapons against the deceptions Satan uses to bring us down. How freeing it is to have no secrets we must waste our time and energy on protecting and keeping hidden. Bless your open heart as you encourage others to risk the kind of transparency you are modeling to so many.

  • socialcyndi

    Oh Donna – THANK YOU!!! You’re encouragement is so appreciated! I’ve found myself so humbled this morning as I realize I’m a constant work in progress. It’s freeing to know that I’m not alone on this journey – and oftentimes, I’m finding myself being carried by the One who offers me the deepest insights into myself! Love you!

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